' Jereline***

2010-12-29T11:59:00.006+08:00

我全都相信，就算你騙我
我也傻傻的相信
因為我愛你
因為不願離去

2010-11-12T03:06:00.005+08:00

僅存的一點點驕傲華麗的外表終於丟掉
很徬徨很孤單是寂寞或悲慘
一個人該怎麼辦

像是刺蝟般防範偽裝得勇敢
不輕易讓你看穿
我以為可以很坦然面對分開時不覺得傷感
然而將燈關上一片無聲黑暗
心痛得大聲呼喊

我想我沒那麼堅強
渴望著愛情的好渴望被擁抱卻都害怕愛讓人受傷
承認我沒那麼堅強不過是一而再的逞強
小心將情緒收藏比傻瓜還傻
刺蝟的堅強全都是假象…

妄想能改變一個人是最大的不幸

2010-10-14T08:01:00.002+08:00

When home is the last place you want to be at, how pathetic can your life be?
When you got no one to turn to, how do you handle everything?

I can't be strong anymore.

2010-09-30T02:36:00.007+08:00

Who doesn't yearn for marriage?
Everyone gone through this phrase in life
Always searching/ waiting for the right one to enter your life & you can give your love & life wholeheartedly, with no regrets.
But we only got one chance to make this decision, a lifetime decison & to make it perfect
Never settle down 'cause you feel that you have to, under pressure & etc..
At least for me, i will never settle down because of these reasons.
Marriage, i will always respect, cherish & maintain it with all i can
It's a commitment for life & i must be sure that i can do it before the day i say: "i do" to that special one
Special one, you don' have to be handsome etc.. because feelings matter more than anything else to me
It's the way you look at me, the way you love me just the way i am, the way you always tell me not to worry for you are here with me etc..
It's the special bond we share & we don't have to always voice it out & we still feel close as ever
Because we understand each other & know what we actually need & feel
You don't have to buy me branded on any special dates 'cause all i wish for is your presence
I wouldn't mind if it is only just a hand written card because to me it is even more significant than anything else that money can buy
I will feel so special whenever i am around you for you make me so special!
Wherever we might be, it doesn't matter as long as you are the one i long for
I always wanted to get married at 18 but i'm already 21 now & i didn't know i am actually afraid of marriage
As friends around me is all married, some even become mother of 2, actually i should be happy that i am nearing the age for marriage but why?
Why am i not even excited & looking forward to it? i've got no idea myself
Is it me or is it you?

~~i don't feel special around you.~~
i'm afraid to give my heart completely.
i can't trust anymore.
tell me, where is this love leading to? :(

2010-09-27T04:40:00.001+08:00

Not my kinda type of guy but somehow, i find him so hot.

2010-09-24T16:13:00.002+08:00

渴望被了解。

在人與人擦身的過程，都渴望碰見一個最懂自己的人。懂你的眼淚，懂你的微笑，懂你的皺眉，還有懂你那最心底的感受。那種，渴望被了解，不須要再多做解釋，別人就能夠理解自己最深處的聲音，有時候，渴望被了解並不是一種認輸。當我們的心擦傷了之後，第一個想要看見的，就是你認為，那個最懂你的人。就算只是聽聽他的聲音，或者，讓他聽聽你心裡的聲音，那也就足夠了。雖然他的責備有時候很嚴格，但是，他的提醒卻又那麼樣的溫和，你卻會知道，就只有他『最懂我』。

2010-08-27T18:15:00.002+08:00

You got a brain but why aren't you using it?
Seriously,how can a family of 5 with tons of stuffs stay in a 3 rooms flat with 4 fully grown adults?
A four rooms flat can barely hold us, how can live we in a even smaller flat?
Are you insane or something? you might be blur but you're not stupid
3 rooms flat got only 2 room, tell me, where is my privacy then?
Don't tell me stuffs like we are not paying for anything thus we got no choice.
What??? i can't believe this came out from your mouth or maybe someone inflict this thinking into you.
Where does this selfish side of you came from? daddy always think for others & i appreciate him & those things he had done for me.
I'm not pin pointing at anybody just feel that this plan is not going to work at all.
I work hard for my queen size bed, my own vaio laptop & so many things which i proudly say they're mine.
& now what? you're asking me to give away my bed and sleep in a single bed, telling me i only get half a room which i got to share with sis, yea from this i know.. i'm losing everything i bought for myself.
worst of all, you told me partition right? you told me i will have a door right? but i heard from maid that you're only gonna put on a curtain to act as a "wall"?
So you feel that your daughters don't even deserve any privacy and respect that you can take us with a pinch of salt just because to you, we are not paying for anything?
Oh yeah, i should have known better, you're still a human.
Money matters most not us. :)
I'm thankful cause i didn't inherit this thinking from you.
Thanks for all these & although i don't treat you that bad, it doesn't mean you stand a place in my heart.
Great people stay & i will always remember.

2010-08-13T03:37:00.002+08:00

喜欢是两个字，爱是一个字
喜欢是一种心情，爱是一种感情
喜欢是一种直觉，爱是一种感觉
喜欢可以停止，爱没有休止

喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起，爱一个人有时候怕和他在一起
喜欢一个人不停的和他争执，爱一个人不停的为他付出
喜欢一个人希望他可以随时找到自己，爱一个人希望可以随时找到他
喜欢一个人总是为他笑，爱一个人总是为他哭；喜欢是执着，爱是值得

喜欢就是喜欢，很简单，爱就是爱，很复杂
喜欢你却不一定爱你，爱你就一定很喜欢你！
爱只有一个字，而喜欢却是两个字，如此看来爱比喜欢更精简更明确，
爱的世界里容不下任何的杂质，它是没有其他字眼可代替的一种情感

喜欢一个人的时候只是一种心情，认为与对方在一起会感到特别开心，请注意，这只是一种直觉，包括你所认为的对他（她）有一种好感也只是一种直觉，这种直觉没有触及到你的内心深处，完全只是一种表面印象。
而爱不同，爱是一种感觉，一种发自你内心的情意萌动，这时候对方的形象全在你的头脑与意识深处，这种爱是靠五官来感应，靠七情六欲来激发的。

喜欢可以停止，没有时间概念，当你没和对方在一起时，也不会感到失落与痛苦，就是要断就断，没有挽留与留恋的必要
而爱没有休止，爱上一个人可以一辈子都爱他（她），这种爱可以永生永世地保留与延缓。

喜欢一个人不必在他（她）面前害羞拘谨，两人在一起时可以无拘无束，畅开胸怀谈论说笑，这是一种非常自然的表现
爱一个人却是特别坦然，你的爱里没有一丝杂念，这种爱是纯净的，伟大的，高尚的，光明磊落的。

喜欢一个人，有时候盼望和他（她）见面，和他（她）在一起，这是一种非常自然又正常的心理渴望
而爱一个人有时候却怕和他（她）在一起，怕看到对方，常常有这样一种人，渴望见到心爱的人却又怕看到对方的身影，特别是不敢触及对方的眼睛，在自己所爱人的面前，常常心惊胆跳，面红赤耳。如果你在谁的面前感到自己特别害羞，特别心跳时，那可能就说明你已经爱上了对方。

喜欢一个人可以不停地同他（她）争执，总是想自己获得胜利或者是得到些利益
而爱一个人可以让你常常让着对方，只要感觉对方快乐幸福，即使你吃点亏，受点苦也在所不惜，你还可以为对方付出很多东西，包括你自己，这是一种爱的体现，也只有爱才能真正做到你为他（她）不悔地付出

2010-08-11T17:02:00.003+08:00

Dream is the place where i always feel you are so close to me

I carry on sleeping just for you to stay with me a little longer

& i woke up to reality 'cause it's just a dream.

2010-06-18T01:14:00.002+08:00

Did you ever feel like you wanted to say so much but your mouth can't utter a word?
well, only to you, a person like me become dumbfound totally
'cause you know, nothing in this world could best describe you
you might not be the most perfect guy in this world but to me, you're great like you are now
like i say, you'll always be in my heart making me smile even if it is just a dream
:') good luck to you for your ns & pls do take good care!

2010-06-16T13:47:00.002+08:00

If a guy can't give you warmth, then what would this love turn into?
Do i rely on you or do i really love you?
I know, you dote on me & give me almost everything i want
But, i can't feel any warmth from you
No one know how it feel to feel so insecure, incertain & to cry alone & solve everything alone
I'm a human, don't say all sorts of hurtful stuffs like i'm a non living thing & came hugging me and telling me not to leave a moment later.
When you're saying you love me, do you really mean it?
'Cause i don't understand how to be so two sided if you are just saying it for fun
When i truly came back to you & breaking up with another guy because of you
Do you think it is for fun? no, cause i really love you.
But i could no longer differenciate love & rely now.
Do you know i envy those girls that have their courting period all those stuffs & everything?
Anniversary, Planned dinner, Surprises, heart to heart talk etc...
Where did mine went to? I asked for them but i never get them.
& this show how much i mean to you? 'cause you don't even bother

It hurts, mentally & physically. You wouldn't know 'cause i wouldn't say.

& to you, i'm sorry 'cause i left halfway
i'm sorry cause i left just because i wanted to, without sparing a thoughts for you
i'm sorry cause we got so much left undone
i'm sorry cause i know if i don't leave, i will be lying to you & myself
i'm sorry cause i believe i do love him at that moment when i leave
i'm sorry cause i wanted to be true to myself and to everyone around me
i'm sorry cause there's so much you can do without me
& yes, sorry is useless.

2010-06-16T13:26:00.003+08:00

This kind of pain, can anyone tell me how to let them go away...
if only the wind can blow it farfaraway & the rain could wash it all away without a trace left behind

How unbearable it is, to see a guy you love being with another girl
When you even failed to make him take a look at you
It's okay, you know, seeing you from afar i'm happy enough
Not lying to myself but you're just too perfect to me
It's just a crush, crush crush crush
Keep repeating it to myself & soon memory & you will fade away
& i will never talk bout you to my friends or even mention bout you anymore
but is it so?
I dream bout you so much, but i just choose to sleep on it
but i can't anymore cause this feeling came crushing down on me
Everytime, the dream pull me back to the past
As if it's telling me i should have done something & is like giving me a chance to do something
But i didn't, i just remain there & look at you
I'll keep you in my heart like i always do
The happiest thing bout going to school is all bout you :')
~~I'm such a loser~~

2010-05-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

*Blow Blow* i got to blow away all the ~~dusts~~ on my blog before i start blogging again..

So what's up for me in 2010? Anyway, it's already may & 2011 is approaching but i've only started to talk bout 2010 only like now!

Nothing much interesting happen but i live a carefree life so i'm still consider contented? hahaha! i hope so.

I went to town today with sam but we both are so worried that we will end up getting bomb as the news on yahoo ytd actually say that terrorists is targetting at orchard station? or am i wrong about this? haha well wheather it is true or not, it did freak us out! I'm still young & i don't want dwarfie to end up being a orphan ;( how sad can it be to just by imagining only!? ;(
Went over to browhaus to get my brows done & the therapist is good but she shape my brows too much i guess & i'm being so paranoid over it now as i feel like i do not have my thick pretty brows alr! ;( Anyway, she is a very friendly lady so i forgave her.. =p

Pervert leong actually waited for me one hour & i thought it is only 30 mins =S i guess she can be a very good boyfriend 'cause she didnt complain at all & moreover this is not the first time she accompanied me to get my brows done! Why is she not a guy ;(
Anyway, ours nails is very very pretty now.. at least i feel proud of mine! =p so random -.-

I'm so not looking forward to my 21st birthday this coming sunday ;(
But i do look forward for the dinner on this saturday 'cause we will be dining at No signboard! :D

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2009-09-23T14:39:00.002+08:00

I'm so uncertain for the first time in my life. This time, i do not know what i want. I can't stand firm. I can't think properly with my brain. I can't think of the consequences. This time, i can't think and didn't think of .......
I'm such a lousy person. How could i ever let such thing happen knowing that it's totally wrong. I'm sorry to myself and to everyone that i might hurt now or in the future..

2009-05-15T12:44:00.000+08:00

Teehee.. i'm counting down to the last day of my work.. I'm so exhausted..

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2009-05-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

Time passes so quickly..
Today is the very first year since you left us..
I miss you, papa..

:)

Come look for me in my dream.. bring me to interesting places again

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2009-04-09T10:47:00.000+08:00

人，为什么要等到失去了才想珍惜。。？

I remember you so deeply in my heart, my mind
The love i had for you, no one can understand
Everyone can doubt me but not you
I always believe you're the one who will stand by me

I wouldn't say you're the wrong person in my life
Just the right person i met at the wrong time
I shall stop here

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2009-04-02T14:53:00.000+08:00

I wonder.. why do life have to be so miserable?
Why do human have to be so pathetic? maybe it's only me.
History just keep repeating.
How stupid can i get to even give love another chance?
I just have to laugh out loud for my own stupidity.
Serve me right! :)
~~I just want to say goodbye to everything, let me leave.~~

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2009-03-30T11:08:00.000+08:00

soooooooo tired! -.- nancy tai is having fun in bkk now.. i also want to go! Watched confession of a shopaholic with baby last sat.. And i want to watch the proposal! :) Blah i'm feeling so boring now.. bye

i got wisdom tooth. Shit! -.-

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2009-03-16T12:03:00.000+08:00

Are you the right one for me? Recently, I've been thinking alot.. I don't know who to turn to, who to talk to, who can i share my problems with.. I love you so much that i want to leave but i can't.. Seriously, i don't know what more can i do.. Just hoping that mayb you will treat me better & be more understanding.. Mayb i shouldn't even think of marriage when everything is unstable.. My mind is in a mess.. I don't even know what i am doing & why am i typing all these out! I guess i'm going mad or mayb depression.. Don't think you will even care.. Okay i will shut up & stop nagging..

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2009-02-26T11:21:00.004+08:00

Bangkok 20 -23 Feb

Yoo hoo.. i'm back from bkk! :D as usual.. fun fun fun! However, i feel that the time over there pass so slowly.. I can go back to hotel to sleep and when i woke up, 1 hour pass only! Shopping & eating till we drop.. Love their ultra cheap and mega size milo! Yummy! I'm missing them all
:( Woke up super early, like 4-5 am to go to airport on the day of departure.. @.@ Reached there super early too.. Like 10am? Thus, we can't check in & we got to start our shopping spree without cleaning ourself.. whatever, i only want my shopping!!! Our lugguage is nearly 40kg.. almost overweight! We went to suam lum night market, chatucak market & then the usual places at pratunam.. lots of bargaining but am still glad to say nth bad happen to us.. Luckily! We're becoming bolder man, we take cab ourself and we even dare to bargain.. I'm quite afraid we will get kill there man! I bought 5 beds back for my baby dwarfie, guess he can slowly use alr.. Silly baby waste money, he bought a huge helicopter back.. tsk tsk! I'm suffering from depression now.. i miss bkk so much! Baby, when do you want to bring me go again? June? Aug? Anytime please!!! Feel like going australia too~ So broke alr! Anyway, i'm so boring now.. stuck in the office.. whatever -.- 6pm faster come.. watching marley & me with baby later! :D blah... byebye!

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2009-02-16T10:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day~~!!!

Okay, i know i am late.. =p Went to Jumbo to have my favourite crabs for dinner~! Silly baby gave me flowers again.. & worst of all he gave me red roses!!! Yucks.. i hate red roses.. Stupid baby! Anyway i gave him a huge card & i make one so call photo album for him.. :) i hope he like it.. But he left it at my house.. So insincere one him! >:@ Baby manage to give me a surprise that day by leaving a self-made card in between my laptop and i don't even know about it till i saw it.. Finally he succeed at giving me a surprise.. :D I feel so touched man! Baby is lousy at giving surprises as i always see through it before he can do anything.. Silly baby! Anyway we went to riverside point jumbo and i request for seats along the river.. I'm even more romantic than babykoh.. LOL after dinner, went to walk around & we went to see others taking those scary rides.. Scary! Went for mahjong at night & we play till 3am.. @.@ & i think i got food poisoning now! Shit! I ate maggie mee ytd with hotdog & luncheon meat.. & i'm having diarrhoea and feel like vomitting now! :( oh no.. please stop all these.. i can't even sleep well! Anyway bangkok on this friday~~ weeeeeee :) Love baby!

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2009-01-14T10:26:00.001+08:00

我好像将一切放下
离开
我想走，可是我走不了
我想逃，但我逃不掉
我想飞，但我没有翅膀
人生是如此多变，难以预料
我想知道，来到这个世上
到底为了什么？
难道，是为了钱？名利？
真的好可悲，好没意思

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你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我?

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最後温柔是因为我太爱你

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2009-01-02T11:17:00.003+08:00

Resolutions/ Wishes for 2009!

1. Stay happy always..
2. Dwarfie to be a good boy.. so mayb i can get him a companion
3. Everyone i love, to never leave me.. including dwarfie
4. To earn as much money as i can..
5. To travel around the world..
6. To own my first gucci bag/ wallet..
7. More bangkok trip~!
8. Can i have my daddy back with me?
9. 090909.. will it come true?
10. New computer/ Laptop..
11. To eat everything i like..
12. To have my own car..
13. To change my handphone..
14. A loving & understanding husband..

& it goes on..

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2008-12-03T10:07:00.003+08:00

我们，会幸福吗？

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2008-11-19T16:00:00.002+08:00

Bangkok 13 Nov - 17 Nov

Totally in love with bangkok! How i wish i can stay there forever~ Bought 3 full bags of clothings back! Shiok man.. Shopping, Eating then shopping.. Airasia is so scary.. Maybe due to it size - small size so i feel like i am sitting on a roller coaster more than a plane.. I'm so afraid that it'll break into two before it can even get onto the sky! But still can take this plane, anyway it's just 2 hrs.. Went to watch thai gers show ( something like strip tease with some jaw dropping stunt ) with hubby on the first night.. I'm totally amazed! O.O Hubby is a pervert fat pig! We had international buffet at baiyoke sky too.. Yum! The restaurant view from the 78th storey is super duper nice~ & yup baiyoke boutique we're staying is very cozy too! Definitely will go back there again, super convenient to all the shopping centres & markets.. ^^ Went to Chatuchak Weekend market on sat & sun.. Bought alot of stuffs for dwarfie too! Everything is like cheap, i mean real cheap! Their puppy is like selling for only $150 or less?!?!?! We went to take their BTS, Subway ( MRT ) to Chinatown & i think we got lost there so we just ate our lunch then head back to our own area for more shopping! It rain on Sunday night & all the night market is close due to the flood! Oh my god.. The water is even dirtier than the drain water.. & i die die have to walk in those water if not i'll get stuck there forever! Argh! We took a tuk tuk back to hotel even though it's like just a 5 mins distance 'cause i don't want to walk in the dirty water! I tried eating their breakfast on monday which is our last day there and it's so nice.. Cheap & nice! Everything there's in mega size but cheaper price.. Love it! Next trip might be in April '09~ ^.*

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2008-11-06T11:56:00.002+08:00

If tears could build a stairway and memories build a lane, i'll walk right up to heaven to bring you back again.

You are a thousand winds that blow
You are the diamond glints on snow
You are the sunlight on ripened grain
You are the gentle autumn's rain

You are the dew-flecked grass at dawn
Where tranquil oceans meet the land
You are the footprints in the sand
To guide me through the weary day
You're my stars that shine at night

Papa, i miss you ..

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2008-10-28T10:01:00.002+08:00

Happy happy holiday~ Hehehe! Shiok man.. i'm totally in love with long long weekend. Watched 2 movies with baby, Saw V & Rec. Saw series is nice.. looking forward to saw VI next year. Rec is kinda scary.. i'm thinking what if one day dwarfie bite me & i become like them?! oh my god, then i will bite everyone till their flesh got rip off by me! Anyway, my handsome dwarfie won't get that kind of virus one lah.. LOL think too much! Saturday, went to baby's uncle house warming.. Had BBQ! ^^ Ytd's mum new shop opening.. hmm never know that my mum can be quite modern. Her shop's in red & black.. I'm amazed! I'm craving for ajisen now~! Yummy! Baby's booking in tonight.. :(

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2008-10-21T11:08:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Hubby~!

Baby, when everything's not going your way, fear not, as i will always be by your side forever.. :)

Just three little words don't seem like enough for someone whose smile can brightens my day, whose touch can make me forget the rest of the world.

They don't seem like enough for someone who's always been there to celebrate with me when everything goes my way and to hold my hand when my whole world seems to fall apart.

And even though "I Love You" can't express the depth of my feelings for you.

I hope you know what's in my heart.

Because loving you means more to me than anything in the world and it always will be.

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2008-10-11T10:58:00.002+08:00

爱情，终究都会回到原点吗？

是我忽略了你，还是我们更本都不属于彼此？

我们都把爱看得太简单。。

呼吸很轻寂寞很深

世界只剩渐渐变弱的雨声

我们沉默着

你不肯說我不敢問

你的眼睛突出了透明的話

忽然我發現你好陌生

明明是兩個不同的角色

愛情卻給我們一個腳本

你要的我不能给，我想的你不懂

兩人在互相拔河

結局給我們一種選擇

要分開卻舍不得

我放不过我自己

眼泪是一种提醒，我还爱你

我只希望我们的爱情能停留在最美好的时刻。。

i love you.

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2008-10-10T16:10:00.002+08:00

Lalalalalaaaaa.. i'm like so tired now! 2 more hours & i will be off from work.. finally. Anyway there will be work tml so i don't think i can have a good sleep again. I shall start to manage my money now.. realise that i've been spending quite alot recently! Keep buying & buying.. tsk! I should start saving for my bkk trip.. yipeee so looking forward to that day! :D

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2008-09-27T11:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i wish you can be a lil more caring, a lil more understanding.. just a lil more.. am i asking for too much?

我们还能回到过去吗？我好想念，从前的你和我。。如此的甜蜜。

下雨天了怎麼辦我好想你
不敢打給你我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替陪我等雨停
期待讓人越來越沉溺谁和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚一個人好累
怎樣的雨怎樣的夜怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能夠有你的體貼
其實沒有我你分不清那些差別
結局還能多明顯別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
期待讓人越來越疲憊誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚一個人好累
怎樣的雨怎樣的夜怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能夠有你的體貼
其實沒有我你分不清那些差別
結局還能多明顯別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
怎樣的雨怎樣的夜怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能夠有你的體貼
其實沒有我你分不清那些差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

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2008-09-24T10:07:00.002+08:00

Just had my yummy breakfast " low mai gai " with honey drinks .. ^^ Super oily but nice! Finally settled the bangkok stuff.. Yeah! I'm so excited.. at last i am taking plane again since the last trip on 2006.. Baby is the best! ^^ Anyway louis koo look exactly like in the tv whereas barbie hsu is like so white but still pretty~! Feel like watching 4bia.. hmm should i ? ~.~

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2008-09-23T12:38:00.005+08:00

♥♥ weeee bangkok bangkok~! I miss Bangkok so much.. Shopping & the foods.. Yummy! Staying at baiyoke boutique.. new hotel & nice design.. i hope it won't disappoint me.. I totally can't wait man.. Baby is going to book our tics now.. So excited but i can't follow him as i have to work.. blah! We're going from 13 nov to 17 nov.. freaking 5 days.. :P definitely not enough time for me to do my shopping!

Anyway i got into a "accident" on last sunday.. I realise there's still barbarians around man!!! How unlucky i am.. Shame on him! I'm not even screaming at him & he dare to scream at me.. ^%#%^# who the hell are you to do that?! He even open my car door on his own.. O.o he's really a barbarian man! For goodness sake, your dad's damn car is not even damage at all! Dumbass! The first thing he said is ask me to compensate him when he haven even look at his own car yet.. so that mean he is trying to cheat money? yaya it's very obvious poor fellow.. shame on you! As a guy, you are screaming at the top of your voice at a girl.. hmm what are you trying to prove? Seriously, i pity your gf.. tsk tsk sucha poor thing! If you've no money to bear the consequences should you bang anyone car in the future or you need to use this "cheating money tactic" to get money.. how embarrassing can you get a?! Wake up please..stop thinking you're great.. okay okay mayb you are great in being a babarian.. hmm in this century still got ppl think that being/acting like a gangster can earn a living meh?! or isit because you can speak as loud as a loudspeaker then u think u win? Peabrain.. To think you're older than me! Don't make me laugh! LMAO! tsk tsk.. you even need your dad to apologise on your behalf?!?! 没出息的男人!

I'm going down to Plaza Singapura later for the connected movie game thingy.. That mean i'll get to see Barbie Hsu & Louis Koo & the Director ~! And one of them will call my cellphone as they need to find me & my colleagues out among all the audience.. alright i know this's lame.. i hope barbie hsu will call me whereas my colleagues is fighting for louis koo.. blah blah blah.. i'm off to call hubby ~! :DDD

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2008-09-03T14:24:00.002+08:00

In the course of our life, we come across many people. We remenber some & forget the others. However, we will never forget those who causes great impact in our life. They came, leave footprints in our life & left without turning back. Leaving us behind to stand up on our own. But they never know, when they left, their footprints is still there. Whenever i look back, everything is there & they will always be there.

Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

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2008-09-01T12:01:00.002+08:00

I got sunburn after going to the RSAF Open House 2008 with baby .. @.@ Didn't bring any umbrella & i almost melt in the sun.. After that, Baby bought me to vivocity for shopping~ yeah my turn to enjoy! Vivocity is getting boring.. *yawn* so we went to the IT show.. If not stupid baby is going to complain that i am a bad gf that don't allow him to go for his favourite IT show.. blah blah.. complain king! =p Lunch soon~

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2008-08-26T12:51:00.002+08:00

Waiting for this~ :D

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2008-08-21T10:15:00.002+08:00

Papa, it's your 100 days today

Where are you now?

Can you still hear me?

Can you feel my pain?

Do you know that i miss you so much?

You promise me..

To bring me to have my favourite crabs

To teach me parking in that weird style of yours

& so many more..

But why? Why're you leaving me behind now?

Who's going to buy me ayam penyat/ hokkien mee in the future?

I'm hungry now, nobody cares..

My whole life.. Only you, ahma, dwarfie & henry

I'm not very close with mum & i definitely won't tell her anything

She'll probably think i'm bullshitting or whatever

So what's the point?

I rather keep them to myself

Rayson is too young to understand

Dwarfie can only listen but can't talk to me

Sis is rarely at home

I will refrain myself from talking about you to ah ma

As she will cry & i don't want anything to happen to her

18 yrs of my life

I'm bless with a complete family

How can i handle this?

I never know what is death

I never know i will come face to face with it this early

Now that you've alr left

I'm so afraid ah ma will be the next

And now i realise, as i get older

I'm losing things one by one

Even dwarfie will leave me one day

How i wish i will never grow up..

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2008-08-11T11:06:00.002+08:00

Life is so fragile

Cherish everyone & everything while you can

I guess i still need some time to move on

Everything that happened on that day

Still stay so clear in my mind

I'll never forget you

Babybaby, let's not quarrel anymore okay?
I just want to be with you as long as i can
Promise you, i will learn to be a more understanding person
Give me time alright?
Let us learn together, to know more about each other
I believe we can do it
I love you, hubby!

Bring me to Sentosa? ~~I'll be your good girl~~ =p

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2008-08-08T17:32:00.001+08:00

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2008-08-05T10:31:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Dwarfie!

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2008-07-03T10:38:00.006+08:00

Baby,

I wanted so much to be with you forever
I wanted so much to have you as my husband
I wanted so much to have you in my life
I wanted so much to have our own family
I wanted so much to do so many things with you
I wanted the whole world to know that i'll be the luckiest girl to have you in my life

But you destroyed everything
You destroyed our love
You betrayed my trust
And you want me to forgive you for the 3rd time
Teach me how?
You never once take my words seriously
And i'm for real now

If you love me, you won't want me to get hurt
If you love me, i'll be your first priority
If you love me, you won't allow anyone to harm me
If you love me, you will know my pain
If you love me, you'll understand me more than anyone else
If you love me, you'll cherish me & our love
If you love me, it's from your heart not your mouth
If you love me, you won't allow any other guys to get near me & say it's ok
If you love me, you won't allow any of this to happen

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2008-06-19T16:43:00.007+08:00

Why?

So many "why" we want to know

Too many problems but there's too little answer

Do you love me?

If you do, you won't hurt me

Sorry, i can't be the same anymore.

You're the one who pull me up when i'm down

Saying how much you will cherish me

How much you will love & dote on me

Whatever happened remain clear in my mind

I'm afraid to give love a chance

But you're the one who change my mind

You bring me to heaven on earth

& I know i'll love you till my last breathe.

You're the one who pull me down

You know what you had done

To make me feel so hurt

I can't trust anymore

But for your sake, i'm willing to give everything a chance

A last chance, i always told myself

Why must you destroy it over & over again

I'm sorry for i can't be the same anymore

What's trust? What's love without trust?

我很爱你，用我的一切爱你

为了你, 我的爱没有保留

我要的不是你的对不起

你永远不会懂

一切很简单

是我们看得太复杂

你欺骗我的1分钟，你用一辈子都补偿不了给我

对不起，我就是忘不了

付出越多，伤害越深。。

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2008-06-16T14:45:00.003+08:00

Sony T70 ~ !!!
:D

Can't wait to use it!!! Thanks baby ~

I promise to be a good girl for a week.. :p

Must Watch!!!

2008-06-09T12:02:00.002+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me & whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight & say you love me one more time
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me & touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one to take my breath away?
If I'm away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me back
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you say that you'll always be there to kiss my pain away?
Would you be there?

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2008-05-31T12:02:00.003+08:00

As a child there were sometimes
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If only you are with me today face to face..

You haven get the chance to see how good I'll become
And you haven get to see me back at number one
There's so many things i have yet to prove to you
How could you just leave like this?
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew i could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish i could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish i could find a way try not to cry"
But everything is too late now
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And Proudly say: " This is my dad"..
And I'll always be right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing for me to do is to bid goodbye..

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2008-05-08T15:46:00.003+08:00

Do you still love me?

So many things going through my mind

Everything is about you & me

Do you still love me?

Everytime my heart wonders

but came to no conclusion in the end

I don't know what's going through in your mind

Can you tell me?

Why do i feel so insecure with you now?

I can't find the answer myself

I feel that we're drifting apart mentally

We may be meeting everyday but somehow

Somewhere something has already gone missing

And how silly for me to realise it only now

I'm uncertain about it in the past

But i'm sure now

Something's just not right between us

What is it?

I want to know too

Our love is no longer there?

Or is it

We just take each other for granted?

Thinking that no matter what we'll stand together

How naive can we be?

Maintaining a relationship isn't that easy

When i miss you, i voice it out

You find me irritating

When i want to see you so much

You think i'm being sticky

When i call just to listen to your voice

You think i'm disturbing you

Why?

I don't feel the same anymore

You don't sound worry for me anymore

You just don't care anymore

Everything you won't allow me to do in the past

you let me do them now

Claiming that i'll get angry if you disapprove them

So you might as well let me do whatever i like

But my love,

Love isn't like this

You've to voice out your opinion if you think it's not the right thing to do

This way, we'll get to know each other better

What's the point of being together when you always let me have my way?

Love is never like this

I can't feel your love for me anymore

Do you know about it?

Whenever i'm angry i hung up your call

But you'll never fail to call back

This time, you don't even bother

Everytime i saw missed calls on my cell

I'll always think it's you

But as always it dissapoint me

Why do you have to be nice to me only when i get really angry?

You're afraid of losing me, the girlfriend you love so much

or just a companion you can't lose?

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2008-04-08T15:39:00.002+08:00

Weeee~!!! I passed my TP!!! ^^ Car Car, Here i come..~~

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2008-03-14T15:25:00.005+08:00

我知道的已经是越来越多

我只等你主动开口

坦白对我说

越靠得近越暴露我们的寂寞

这样的爱远比分开还要更难过

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2008-02-25T19:37:00.004+08:00

I need you so badly now.. Do you know? I understand it's not your fault.. But i need you so much.. So badly.. Sometimes it feel so terrible but there's nth i can do.. You don't even have the time to call me, meet me & sms me so often like before.. All i can do is wait for your call/ sms hoping you will do so soon.. Wait patiently for every friday cos you'll book out.. And become super emo on sunday cos you're booking back in.. I feel that i'm not being myself anymore.. All i can think of is you.. I don't understand why i have to rely on you so much.. You are not with me when i fall.. All i left with is myself.. I encourage myself i comfort myself i do everything myself.. You don't understand how i feel.. Sometimes, there's things i need you to understand instead of me telling you straight to the point.. Something just won't be shown on the surface.. You have to understand and feel it.. Can't you feel how i really feel when i say i don't mind? Can't you feel that i don't want to hang up the phone when i insist that you go to bed with a very diff voice? Can't you feel all these? I don't know what to say.. I think you should know me well enough.. I'm really lost......

其实我的安静有迹可寻

只是你不太留心而已

如果说两个人在一起

比一个人孤寂

爱会不会过期?

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2008-02-23T16:38:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday ♥

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2008-02-20T14:27:00.004+08:00

Went to The Leap Years Gala Premiere Last night with baby. All the main casts is there too and they sit very near us. Wong Li-Lin is super slim and Ananda Everingham is super handsome! :)~ It's the first time i watch a movie with so many senior personnels which include Mediacorp & Golden Village CEO if i'm not wrong and more.. First time the whole theatre seem so "well-educated" with no disturbing phone ringing, ppl laughing/talking/munching on their foods loudly etc.. Anyway, The show is awesome if you understand. If not, it can be pretty boring. It's more to those artistic kind of film with lots of meaningful quotes all those. But overall it's not a bad film after you finally understand the whole story. Hmm.. Very romantic love! ^^

It Is Better To Have Loved And Lost Than To Never Have Loved At All.

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2008-02-19T12:24:00.003+08:00

The Leap Years..

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2008-02-14T10:56:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

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2008-01-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

Gucci ♥♥♥

♥

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2008-01-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

I don't know who to turn to, i don't know what to do by myself, i don't know how to express my feeling in the right way, i feel so useless. Why can't i just learn my lesson? Dennis is alr enough. Enough to kill me. Why can't i just do what i promise myself? I thought dennis is the right one for me but look what he did to me! I may have alot of bad points but i believe that's not a good reason for him to do such a cruel thing to me after what we've been thru for almost 2 years! I don't understand. Till you came into my life. You made my life whole. You made me found a reason to carry on with my life. You made me smile again. You do almost everything i like just to make me happy. You brough me to the park so i can stop thinking. You play with me even though it make you look stupid. You cry with me when i cried. You comfort me when i'm sad. I share my problems with you & you always try your best to solve them. You accompany me till late just to spend more time with me. You accompany me out everyday because i'm bored. You chatted with me on the phone till you fall asleep cause you know i don't like to be alone. So many things you've done for me. I decided to give love one last chance. I trust you so much. But in the end, guys is all the same. Just that the mistakes they made is different. Why must you do that? Do you know my trust for you decrease so much? It's a very big blow to me. I thought i'm the most important person to you. Sometimes, not everything can be easily reveal out by typing. But i'm not good at words too so most of time, i'll keep them to myself. You never once bother about it. I know you tried asking me what happend. In a very irritated & impatient tone. Do you think i will tell you? I'm a girl. No matter how long we've been together, went out together, joke together, i'm still a girl. I've got my fragile side. Why can't you be more understanding and patient towards me? Of 'cause i will fight back and not tell you a single thing when you replied me in that kind of tone. I will think that we're drifting apart and that you don't even care anymore although you assure me that you're not. How can i believe you? You tell me what should i do. I need your attention baby. I want you to treat me like before. Really sweet, gentle & patient. Why must everything changes? I feel like dying..

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2007-12-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

How can love last when trust is no longer there?

I just can't get over it. I might be too sensitive to you but that's how i feel after i feel betrayed. I can't hide the feeling and treat it as nth had happened. Especially when you're someone so impt to me. I don't understand why you do that to me. I believe our love ain't that fragile but now, i think it's my own thinking & not ours. I believe nothing can separate us and the thing that you had done is something that i nvr ever think that will happen to us. Imagine, how hurtful will that be? No matter what i say or do, I always remenber not to cross the line. I told you who i talked to, who i met up with and every single things i do. But you did not. Yes i know you're afraid that i'll get angry. Then why must you purposely do it ( i assume it's purposely since you know i'll get angry and you still do it) ? I don't understand. Do you really cherish/love me? It seem like you are not that into me when you do something like this. Put yourself in my shoes. How will you feel? Imagine i'm chatting with dennis. (not just chatting, i mean those contents you chat about too) Feel good? :) I try not to let that affect our relationship and i hope mayb you'll treat me better. Do you know i feel so cheated & insecure? Why can't i add her up? Why? I don't understand what's there to hide. Please, i love you. Stop doing all those nonsense that'll make me drift further away from you :.(

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2007-12-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

Why?

Again and again..

如果說兩個人在一起比一個人孤寂愛會不會過期 ?

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2007-12-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

Oh my god. I almost get killed by a stupid motorbike when i'm crossing the damn road to get to my office -,- I know it is going to happen one day 'cause that damn road don't even have a traffic light! Okay la they have it but my office is like in the middle of both traffic light and they're super far away. So like this morning there's congestion and i have to walk in between the car to cross the road if not i will stuck there forever and i'll be late. And a guy is cutting queue by riding his ugly bike in between the lane to get to the front and who the hell know there'll be a bike popping out =,= all the car is like jam there for quite some time and if there's a bike or what it should had alr be at the front. And so i crossed the road and he almost bang onto me. Lucky he brake fast if not i gonna rip his head off if there's any injury on me. I just stood there and stare at him but he still can smile. Wth! Blah i'm getting bored. 2 more hours and i'm off :DDD

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2007-12-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

想念是会呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛　看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛　它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛　恨不懂你会痛　想见不能见最痛

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2007-12-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

I'm so disgusted by some human beings after watching the human trafficking show. I'm so affected by the show man -,- i keep thinking about it! I don't understand how can any human do this to anyone. Why ruin a innocent life for the sake of money? Inhuman Bastards/Bitches! Why can't you just go to a brothel and find those hookers who is willing to serve you rather than you find a young lil girl or anyone who's being abducted & forced to do it?! I totally don't understand their thinking. Are they sick or what? I guess they don't care much as long as they get their pleasure anyway it's not happening to their own family members. Can you imagine a uncle having sex with a kid? I feel like puking even by thinking about it. Please la, you're just a sicko! Don't even think that by having those dirty money, you've all the power in the world for everything. You'll get your retribution! How will you feel if your own kids/wife is the victim? >:( Selfish human beings!

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2007-11-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

I want to go to Luo Zhi Xiang Concert pleaseeeeeee~~! :( It's so ex plus i need to go and fetch erjie so i can't. I feel like so wasted can! I think that it'll be a very nice concert.. But the concert is tml and even if i book tic now, everything will be very rush too T_T Shit!!! I want luo zhi xiang~~ No i mean i want to watch the concert LOL i want elvin ng! Yea i really want him. He's sizzling hot man! ~_~ irresistable! Blah i'm so bored =\ 1 more hour to go and i'm off.. :DDD Stupid ass is booking out later.. Byeee

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2007-11-29T10:38:00.000+08:00

I guess i'm a workaholic now.. T_T i work for one month straight man! Except for holidays which i don't have to and the half day leave i've taken so far. Oh my god! It's so unbelievable. I actually work from 9 to 6 literally! Okay although it's very normal but for me this "don't care" character, it's a miracle. I nvr know i love working so much man (or maybe is the environment or the ppls there who make me feel so?). Haha Except the fact that it's very tiring waking up super early in the morning and all those rushing 'cause i love to take my time. Yeah! My pay is in today! But i'm not rich at all T_T today come in but soon it'll be going out. Stupid License, You better let me pass on my first attempt if not i swear i gonna tear down the whole SSDC man! Yea~ Going off work in another 45 mins time! Byeee =D

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2007-11-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

I miss baby so much :( i just can't live a day happily without him.. I'm so dependent on him but it's good 'cause baby will have to take care of me forever! Baby might be booking out tml for awhile and he promise to come & meet me :D Yeah!! I hope he got book out man if not i'll have to wait till sat~! =,= 'Cause he got some training on fri and he will only be able to book out on sat. Shit! Alright i've to wash up now and go to bed by 12am! If not baby will nag at me again that old hag :@ I love my babyyyyyyyyyy :DDDDDD

Honey ♥

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2007-11-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

I realise I miss schooling days so much.. :( I miss everything in the past.. I miss canteen foods, friends, late notes and many many others things.. :( i miss having exams and writing long long compo.. This is a past that i'll nvr get to experience anymore.. I regretted 'cause i didn't cherish those times when i'm able to.. How silly of me to skip school almost everyday.. I miss going to school and i miss him.. :\ Yes, i still miss him sometimes even now.. 5 years and even if he didn't even take a look at me i'm kinda satisfied with it. 'Cause i know other than studying, he's another impt reason for me to go to school too. My first crush :) the first guy whom i'm in love with so much and for so long.. It's okay if he don't return the feelings 'cause all i want is to see him everyday.. Those days is really so memorable. Everything is still going on fine now and it've been 9 mths since i last saw him in school. I really can't imagine how i bear to walk out of the school even before the graduation ceremony ended even though i know it might be the last time i'll ever see him. I don't cherish things/person 'cause i always think there's still chance blah blah. I'm sucha shithead :\

Baby, Sorry for not being a good gf ..

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2007-11-09T20:47:00.000+08:00

It isn't the same anymore.. Everythings that we once share, They seem to be fading off..

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2007-11-06T02:02:00.000+08:00

>.<~! Shit I'm missing baby so much that i can't even sleep! I guess i am used to him sleeping with me alr. Baby will always nag me to sleep whenever he stay over :( I miss you alot luh stupid henry koh!!! Please don't go back to your camp anymore~~ :( Baby's booking out on wed night i guess. I swear i gonna cling on to him and don't let him leave me even for a sec :D Went for a interview today and the person said that they will call me back if i'm selected. Well i'm neutral luh so shall see if they call me back tml. Pay $1400 man! :) shiok ~ I love henry ass many many..

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2007-11-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

I seriously can't stand guys who "love" their friends more than their own gf!!!

Yes you!

You better read this now and get it into your head if not i'm sure everything will be over soon if you carry on to behave like this!

I totally can't tolerate this fucking behavior of yours!

This is the biggest mistake you've made 'cause i can tolerate everything but definitely not this!

I'm sure you know what i'm talking about 'cause you can even admit it yourself without me telling you what's wrong.

So why? Why are you doing this when you know i'll flare up at you?

I totally don't understand what are you thinking!! Why the hell you do it when you know I'll definitely be very angry?!?!

And do you know i can just forget about this r/s since you think your friendSSS "ah yes, i say friendSSS 'cause i know you've got tons of friendSSS" is so much more impt than me.

Why fucking say you love me when your friendSS is so much more impt to you huh?

Hey pls, I go all the way to fetch you everytime you book out and yet this is how you treat me??!!!

Don't fucking take me for granted! If you think that your friendSS is even more impt then pls let me go.

There's many guys who will cherish me and not leave me aside while happily chatting with their friends like i'm transparent or like i deserve this kind of treatment!

Never, never take me for granted!!

You know me well enough at least to know what i'll do when i can't tolerate anymore.

You know it, don't make me do that 'cause i don't wish too

Pls kindly change before i leave this r/s behind

Baby ♥

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2007-10-31T02:22:00.000+08:00

How long can a relationship last?

It really depends.

Love, Care, Trust, Respect, Understanding and so much more things you've to put into a relationship to keep it going.

It'll not be easy but at least if there's effort made, i believe the other half will see/ feel it definitely.

Without efforts, nothing works be it work/ relationship or any other things.

Baby,

I really wish we can hold on till the end.

You're the last person i ever want to leave

now and forever~!

Like father, like son :D

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2007-10-22T03:40:00.000+08:00

I miss Baby so much! :(

The feeling is just so terrible when baby's back in camp :( sunday is a emo day! I just hate it when baby need to go back and i'll only be able to see him on fri. I know 5 days is very easy to pass but i just don't like it. Baby's so busy in camp and we can only talk at night. I'll be counting down till the day baby ORD :D Then he will be mine forever..

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2007-10-17T02:22:00.000+08:00

My back is aching like shit now :@ guess i've to go to bed soon. Been rather busy since mon cause :DDDDDD i'm not going to tell yet. So like tml i'm going to dad shop with sam to get our hair done. Mayb i want to dye another color. My current brown is like so so dull and i'm tired of it alr. Mayb i can have something brighter? :D i would love to have blonde highlight thou. But dad say bleaching will make the hair spoilt so shall see how tml then. I miss Baby so much la!! We only chatted on the phone for like 10 mins only for today!!! T_T I'm the one being busy and can't call him so my bad my bad :\ Anyway tml is wed alr and i will be seeing my cute baby on fri!!! 2 more days to go.. :) happy~!! Oh no my period is still not here yet. Hmmmm very bad cause mine is always on time except for a few times la :\ shit man it's making me worry cause i'll be so paranoid that i think i am pregnant LOL! -,- okay enough of being lame. Browsing through david & goliath webby now and theirs clothings is so cuteee. I can't resist the urge anymore so mayb i'll ask baby to help me see how can i ship them over to singapore :DDD getting them for baby too. Our couple tees!! I choose them but baby will be the one paying :$ i guess he will kill me if he see this. Alright i think i have to go to bed now. My back is breaking and my stupid tummy is in pain again ~_~

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2007-10-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

Baby's coming over now :D that stupid didn't wake me up just now and we both sleep till 2pm =,= so like we went for movie last night -Lust, Caution- finally i went to watch it. I can say it's rather interesting cause i didn't fall asleep through out the whole 2 & 1/2 hours show. It's super long okay it's like the longest movie i ever watch cos i know i can't sit for long unless the movie is very interesting. Went to Mustafa after the show. Baby came over to my house to help me keep my oil as my tummy keep aching :( after that rest for awhile then he went home. Going over to woodlands for buffet now cos his mum can't attend due to work so baby have to go on her behalf? LOL i guess it's like this. Alright so next up i'm going to watch Saw IV and Pleasure Factory :DDDDDDDDDDD totally can't wait. I hope baby will bring me for shopping later :\ that lazy ass. Shall update again

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2007-10-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

=DDD baby's booking out early tml if i'm not wrong. That fat ass!! I so so so gonna get the miss & mr tees from new urban male for baby & myself but guess they'll be super ex luh! =\ But they're irresistably cuteeee =D I seriously need a job now.. >=(

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2007-10-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

>=( stupid baby is taking forever to reach my house!!! I'm super hungry alr.. :( i've only eaten a donut since i woke up.. Blah i still need to go to hougang mall to return them my working tees =,= super troublesome. I think pay will be in next week :DDD Finally i hit 1k in my bank acc. This is so unbelievable!!! Butttttt all will be use for my license _\_ stupid life. I feel like i'm in debt man

Without You
Life will be like a box of chocolates..
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Non Fattening, Unsweetened, no colouring chocolate that is..

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2007-10-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

Lust Caution & Saw IV!!!!! :D

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2007-09-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Bahhhh it's 4am now and i'm still not in bed >:( i'll have wrinkles!! Shall do a quick blogging now cos it's too late alr! So like i went for my practical today and i clear stage 2 alr. Yeah :D booked my traffic police test alr too. The test is on 25 Feb 08 oh my god. Around 5 mths of waiting. But it's good also luh cos i can work then by that time i will have sufficient money to go for many many revisions and make sure i pass on the first attempt :D Baby promise to get me a chihuahua if i pass my TP on my first attempt. I guess most probably he said that just to make me pass my test luh! Stupid baby is not that good to get me another dog cos he can't even handle dwarfie alr :\ lousy baby! So like i'm too bored just now so i went blog hopping and i saw one really funny photo (below) and i decided to post it up. Alright dwarfie is like staring at me now. I guess he's tired and he want me to sleep with him lol!!! GoodNight!! Babyyyyyy will be out in a few hrs time.. :DDD

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2007-09-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

^$%^$%^$ i'm feeling so stress luh. Stress over money, license and work. I guess there's more but 3 biggest stress that can make me crazy is those =,= now i believe money's really scary. Without it you can't survive but when you've it you want more. Worst still, if you get them by doing evil stuffs. Tsk tsk fcuk luh why must everything evolve around money!?!? I think i'll be better off living in the 50's or 60's. Somemore everything in singapore is like fcuking expensive can! One practical lesson cost me 80 bucks!!! I went to see my payment history for my lesson and it's like $1500 alr -,- i swear this's the first time i use so much money on a particular thing. Fcuk and i still have like 8 more lessons and a few revisions before i'm done with this stupid course. Although i love to have it alot but come on i think by thinking of the amount i need to fork out is enough to make me crazy :( but i won't want to give up now cos i'm like at the last stage alr. Arghhhh stress luh! So like i met fangmiao at bugis just now for some shopping trip. Went to had pepper lunch for dinner and it's so nice to have cheese add in it cos the rice is like very chewy but i can't taste any cheese luh. Went over to bugis street and we bought the same bermuda for our bf. LOL i guess it'll be very funny when they wear it out tgt. So GAY! Bought a dress for myself too at a super super cheap price of 12 bucks. I guess i need to alter it cos the opening at the side is too big :@ Went back hougang with fangmiao and we chatted bout so many stuffs today :D I'll be waiting for my 1st 1k to be in my bank soon. I've to work hard cos i want more than 1 k. LOL will be working at hougang mall from 2nd oct to 8th oct. Money Money!!! Alright there's practical tml i guess i need to sleep now as i have to wake up at 11 T_T Baby's booking out on friday yeayea!! :D nighty night

Pooooo

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2007-09-25T13:32:00.000+08:00

Okay i guess i'm lucky LOL someone just transfer me 40 bucks and i don't know who's that!! I guess this is like the weirdest thing i ever encounter in my whole life.. Even though it's only 40 bucks but it's still better than nth luh. LOL i'm not greedy. I really wonder who is that dumb ass that's so blur but it's ok i hope he/she can be blurer cos i love it :D oh no why m i so evil!! Mayb the money will disappear later blahhh so i better don't be too happy for now if not i gonna cry later. 40 bucks is almost enough for 1 very expensive practical lesson okay! So like i booked a lesson later and i hope i can clear stage 2 today.. So i can book my test date alr if not i'll have to wait for so freaking long luh. Alright enough of all these. I'm so bored now and i went to browse through friendster again and i saw some really disgusting photos of my ex (gf). It's not nude or whatsoever cos i doubt she have that kind of figure to do it anyway LOL it's just some random pic luh but she's like super duper disgusting?! The first thing i saw is her super fat double chin then that fugly face of hers. Imagine how fat her double chin is to even let me notice it before her face. I thought face is always first then features later on???!! Mayb i'm wrong LOL m just trying to say she spoilt my day. I shouldn't have go into her friendster page and shouldn't even look at her photos :\ blahhhh Alright i think i got to bath now if not i'll be late for my practical again and i cannot be late anymore luh cos the stupid practical is horribly expensive -,- shall blog again when i'm free.. :D byeeee

Baby POP with mama :D

No one else can love me like you do..

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2007-09-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

:(((((((((((((((( super emo now cos baby's back to camp again. I miss him so much luh!! I'm like super sticky to him cos i don't want to live a day without baby. -sigh- but there's nothing i can do. Just hope this 2 yrs pass quickly and peacefully. Baby's not posting out but still i hope he get those storeman or driver job so he won't get so tired and of cos have more time for me and his mum. Anyway i feel so contented spending the past whole week with baby :D went to many places and i really feel so happy to be with baby for the whole week again ever since he's enlisted. Didn't went overseas as planned and i guess we meet everyday. Baby have no choice cos i'm a super sticky gf :p Well let me recall what we've done for the one week.. hmmm we went for bbq, pets farm and many many shopping trips. I can't really rmb the others LOL i'm suffering from stm luh. Hmmmm i don't know what to blog about alr. Without baby mean no life.. Blahhhhh Bye!! :D

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2007-09-17T13:06:00.000+08:00

Finally my stupid baby POP and become a real man ( although i don't feel so) XD
Anyway baby's mine for a weekkkk :DDDDDDDDDDDD

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2007-09-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

I feel so lazy now :\ feel like sleeping but i'm too lazy to go & wash up and i can't sleep before i wash up. It's so disgusting luh sleeping with foods in between your teeth. I'm sure there'll be some tiny bits of food in between even though i see none. Didn't work today cos audrey didn't call me and i feel so weird without doing anything the whole day. I'm turning into a workaholic i guess :( that's not good!!! So went to hougang mall to get some accessories for my lovely ds lite in the afternoon and none caught my eyes. Anyway thanks baby for selling your psp and getting me ds lite and i love it :D baby pink is just so sweet luh!!! Went to far east after that as i have problem going back to the main menu and sam want to order her ds lite too. Baby's booking out on wed morning :DDDDDDDDDD super happy can!!! I miss him so much.. If he don't have to stay for guard duty he should be booking out tml night but it's ok.. As long as i get to see him i don't mind.. :) alright i think i really got to wash up now my eyes is closing!! Night..

Baby's my milk chocolate :p

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2007-09-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

I'm having constipation now luh!! >:( wth!!! I'm feeling so uncomfortable :( baby went for his outfield alr. It's Thursday tml and he'll be back on sat.. :D I hope he can book out on sat man. I miss baby so much.. 3 more days only easy easy luh.. LOL i guess i'm used to this kind of lifestyle alr.. Where by there's nth i can do no matter how much i don't want baby to go.. Soooo just get used to it.. No choice also -,- Changed my job and i'm working at omega capital now.. It's a finance company luh don't really know what they're doing also cause this's the first time i'm in a finance company. So far i just went to work and i only do excel only.. Easy job i can say.. I hope it'll stay like this forever LOL i'm lazy luh. So like everyone there's friendlier than those in axa and i'm happier there. Went to china square? or whatever it's called for lunch today and $%^$%^$^$# don't wish to say it here -,- oh my god and ^&%^&'s older than what i think. But he look young lei mayb my eyes something wrong. Went to drink coffee with one of my colleague and we chatted so much bout r/s. She tell me so many things that i've nvr think of and it really make me think twice on marriage now. Yes everything is sweet and nice now but human do changes :( mayb not him but me.. We can nvr predict the future.. When your social circle expand and you start to know more ppls, normally 9/10 will change.. As in thinkings, the lifestyle, goals in your life and many more that i can't possibly name them out now. Sometimes i think that life is so stupid cos all you have to do is to study like crazy and get that fcuking paper then slog till you die.. Okay mayb till you retired but by that time you're probably too old to even enjoy and do the things you want to do.. =,= whatever.. I don't think this is how i want my life to be.. Anyway i've to go to bed now if not i gonna sleep like a log again :D i love baby that fat ass!!

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2007-08-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

I am being so over sensitive these few days.. I know baby's going crazy because i flare up on almost everything.. :( tsktsk i hate it! I think i'm too stress luh cos of work, license and of cos our relationship.. I know baby's good to me and there's absolutely nth wrong with him but me.. I seriously can't be in a relationship where by my bf have very little time for me.. Meeting once in a week is not little but very very little.. I know i'm being childish but there's nth i can do to change it.. I'm alr like this. I get everything i want and when things don't go my way i'll just die on the spot. Alright this's just me i'm stubborn i want everything to be sweet & nice. Baby's going for his field camp soon.. I think is around sep and i wonder what will i do for that 1 boring week. Hmmmm mayb i'll get use to it? Or mayb we will drift further from each other? I hope not please -,- I just hope all these end fast luh. I can't take it anymore.. I need baby by my side 24/7!!!! :@ Baby's doing guard duty now and i think he won't have enough sleep tonight. So poor thing! How dare they bully my henry koh huh .. I'm the only one who can do that to him okay! Went for the compulsory automatic lessons just now and it's way more easier than manual.. But still i can't drive well cos i'm too used to manual.. I'm finding my gear lever all the while and i just can't rmb i'm driving auto today =,= so forgetful.. I clear my stage 1 & i passed my Final Theory too!!! :D a few more practicals to go and i can book for my TP soonnnnnn YEAHHHHH!!! Finally luh my driving license wait for me pleaseee.. Going to fetch baby tml if he can wake me up successfully luh sooo i'm going to bed now.. Feeling so tired cause i go to work for 5 days straight man. I'm not even so hardworking when i need to attend school :p Alright Night!!! i love baby..

♥♥♥

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2007-08-18T11:22:00.000+08:00

I found nira friendster :D i don't know if it's really her account but she's so so super hot.. I still rmb the first time i saw her on maxim magazine and i'm like wah this girl super hot at least to me. Her looks is a killer! And whenever i'm at the mags column in book store, i'll surely go find maxim cos i wanna look at her. LOL i think i'm behaving like a les. Seriously luh she's so hmmm i don't know how to describe but i just love to look at her. But no matter who, Jolin will still be in my first place! Oh shit Final Theory Test on monday :( i'm so afraid i'll fail luh. If i fail i'll have to wait for a month again. =,= Shit!!! Don't let me fail this and TP please. But TP is still long luh so i'm not that worry bout it. And that ass baby can't book out on time today. These few days so many shit things happen to me. =,= i think most probably he will book out at around night time? Might as well don't book out. And he still need to book in early on sunday. Like what the hell. I see no meaning why he have to book out like this. The time he book out is only enough for us to say hi and bye. Okay i know i'm exaggerating but i think it's really too short. I will not book out at all if i were to be him. Waste of my time. =,= Alright my tummy is growling now :( feel like having mac.. Hmm shall blog again when i have time. Byeeee

Niraaaa!! ^^

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2007-08-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

I think dwarfie is afraid of the thunder cos he keep following me.. LOL i think i won't have a good sleep tonight if the thunder don't stop :( i can't use the word scare but i just can't sleep well when there's thunder. I will even wake up in the middle of the night if i hear thunder and i will stay awake till the thunder stop. If only baby's with me now and it'll be perfect..dwarfie can't protect me cos he's afraid himself and he's so tiny.. I think even a small fan can cause a serious injuries on him -,- The sky is pinkish now and i think the thunder won't stop so quickly. Dead luh i've to work tml can! I feel so uncomfortable without baby :( i feel like hearing his voice!!! I met baby like twice in this week cos of the public holiday and i guess i'm used to it again. Knowing that i won't be able to see baby all the way till sat just make me feel so uneasy.. :( i miss him so much!!! Alright the thunder is getting louder and it's like so horrible.. I gonna read my newspaper now and hopefully i can get to sleep after that.. Night!!! :( i want baby

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2007-08-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

Feeling so excited.. baby's booking out tml cos it's public holiday!!! Yeah and i totally can't wait for tml. I want to hug my baby boy so tightly till his bones break :\ i'm sick i know. LOL Late for work again today.. Bought coffee as my eyes is closing :( i feel so tired luh! Went to lau pa sat for lunch then went to explore the place with sam. Back to work again and we keep slacking.. LOL staying in the office for long hours will make me mad! OT for an hour today then rushed home to watch my 7pm show.. Elvin is so handsome man his eyes is a killer.. Oh my god he's like the only asian guy in showbiz i admire.. Irresistable!!! I smile when he smile i think i'm mad.. And the paperclip that appear in mircosoft word is my friend cos he acc me thru out working time.. I meet him even more than baby.. :( awww this's so sad cos this show baby spend very lil time with me.. Not his fault i know baby's trying his best alr.. Booked movie tics for hostel 2 for tml.. Suddenly baby treat me so uber good cos he rarely plan what to do when he book out and he even ask me if i want to watch the movie i'm aiming for.. Something must be wrong! Hmmmmm... Mayb i'll go off early from work tml cos i wanna fetch baby :) i miss his dumb dumb face so much and i so wanna bully him! Payday tml :)))) super happy! But all will be use for my car license fees! =,= suck anyway i want to get my license fast luh! Got to sleep alr.. Night!!!

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2007-08-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

:( baby can't call me tonight as he's having rifle test today. STUPID! i want to listen to baby voice before i sleep luh. Didn't went to work today as i'm super tired so i lied to them that i am feeling unwell but i think i'm really unwell now. Feel so giddy as though i gonna faint anytime and my stomach keep aching non stop for don't know how many days alr >:( hate it man it feel like having cramps. Have to go back to work tml and that's like so bored! Went for practical just now again and it's fun as i drive outside again. And i can drive faster not like a tortoise in the school circuit. LOL i will fall asleep if i drive slowly cos i know it's not dangerous at all. I want to go for practical again. I hope i can get my license by this year. Instuctor is not bad today but he's kinda open and chat about everything with me -,- i keep telling him not to distract me. LOL super funny and i learn how to make a turn correctly without mounting the kerb and i mount the kerb once. He said if today is the actual test i can prepare to go home alr cos it's a straight fail. My god luh i hope i don't fail my actual test if not i 'll have to wait again totally hate waiting can! Argh i feel so uncomfortable without talking to baby :( alright i have to wash up now. It's late alr and there's work tml :\ hate working! Night........

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2007-07-29T17:36:00.000+08:00

:( baby's booking in later.. And he's sleeping like a log now. Anyway went to watch alone at marina square ytd. Went to eat hong kong cafe after that. Boring lifeeeee... how i wish baby can stop booking in and stay with me everyday! :( Booked practical lesson again and it's on tues. Yea love practical lesson so much. Instructor told me that i will be out on road on my next lesson which is this coming one :) totally cool can. I can finally drive out cos the school circuit is so boring. Drive in circle for 2 hours =,= lame can! I think i can't have any shopping spree for 2 months! Cause i have decided to use all my salary for driving as i want to get my license fast. And it's also true that i have to go for lesson often if not i will forget everything. I even forgot to adjust the mirrors on my previous lesson and the instructor have to teach me all over again =,= waste time and money. So baby told me to bear with it and get my license first :( mayb baby can sponsor me for shopping spree? LOL :( no money no life luh. Baby's snoring nowwwwwwww :( i don't want him to book in please.. Alright i need to wake him up now. It's time for him to get prepare :( byeeeee

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2007-07-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hey :) been busy working since monday. I'm tired alr man guess i gonna sleep soon if not i will get depression. Sleeping is very impt to me. LOL i didn't get enough sleep :( feel like sleeping while working but can't. Went to hougang mall with sis and mum after work today and yea shopping spree. I think my mum is happy today it's kinda rare for her to bring us on a shopping spree now. She keep saying that she's broke! :( awww this is so sad. I want more shopping spree. Mum is getting a car for me :) i wonder if it's for real. I want a sport car please! That's my ultimate aim for taking manual lessons. Sport Car pleaseeeee i'll be a very good girl. I miss pratical lessons too but they're so ex cos the time i can fork out is at their high peak time and the cost is like $80 per lesson! :( sad sad sad... Finally baby call! -,- he told me wait for 5 mins but he called me after 10 mins :( baby's a big liar!!! Just booked my Final Theory Test and it's on 20 aug. My god that's like so long man! Hope i can get a earlier slot. Alright i need to go now it's late alr. I still haven wash upppppppppppp......i feel so lazy. Good night ;)

Happy Birthday Dennis :D
When i call you by your name... it's time for me to face the truth

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2007-07-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

Feeling so tired now :( woke up late today but luckily i'm not late for the lesson. I slept for only 4 hours man! Rushed to SSDC and i'm just on time. Everything went on smoothly and i totally can't wait for the next practical! Driving is so fun. The instructor is kinda funny and patient too. And he told me that he stay very near me LOL. Went Northpoint after that and i went to eat yoshinoya myself :( so sad man! Went to buy breads for baby too. Walked around then went to fetch baby. I reached before he do and i went to explore the surroundings myself. Not fun at all cos there's nth much there for me to explore. I don't dare to walk far too cos i think i'll get lost. So went back to mrt station to wait for baby and we arrived at the station at the same time. Trained back to yio chu kang and i keep pointing to the direction of SSDC to baby and give him those "i want to go for practical again" look. I wonder if he will let me go LOL cos have to use his money. Took a bus back to my house then slack awhile then come to baby's house. Went to Punggol nasi lemak for dinner just now. And we bought 2 durian puffs back cos baby never eat before when it's like so famous. Baby's watching tv and eating his durian puff now! PIG! The durian smell is so strong man i can even smell it when we're not in diff room. Alright i gonna rest awhile. I'm feeling so tired alr. Baby keep eating non stop. Will update again. Byeeeee :)

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2007-07-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

Oh my! I've been so lazy recently >:( that's very bad! It's 12.40 now and i need to go to bed alr =,= i booked a practical lesson and it's at 8.15 am. That's like super early can but i've no choice because the other slot that is available for tml is at 1.05 pm and i can't possibly go for that cos i know baby will cry! :@ He will be so sad if i never go and fetch him tml. Baby paid the practical fees for me :) thanks baby! Because he called me early just now so i'll forgive him. I'll go & fetch him tml and i think after i finish my practical lesson, i'll buy some breads for him. I want him to be FAT with that round tummy of his! I have to feed him as much as i can everytime he book out if not he'll slim down and that'll be so ugly. I'm starting to feel tired thanks to blogging haha for killing my brain cells! And i haven "bath" for my lovely bike. His name is bibi LOL okay la i know i label it as a his but i want to treat his as a living thing can! So i'll have more feeling for him what! Found a job as admin at AXA insurance and i hope it'll be fun. Starting work next mon. :) i hope everything turn out fine. And and and SAMMMM WORK WITH MEEEE!!! Alright i've to go to bed alr. I've less than 6 hours to sleep!!!! SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSS byeeeee ;]

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2007-07-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

To: Baby

I'm sorry for hurting you. I shouldn't have say all those things to you. I'm too stressful i guess. Baby i promise i'll try my best to maintain our r/s. Sometimes, i really hope you can be by my side but you can't. It's not your fault. I really miss those times when you'll come and fetch me after my shopping trip and many others more. When i'm hungry you'll always be there and bring me out for supper. But now, i know i won't be able to get all these except on your book out day which is like 1 pathetic day per week. This is definitely not enough. There's nothing wrong with you and our love. It's me. I can't live a day by myself as in i need you to be there for me. And by talking on the phone for 10-20 mins for a day is totally not enough. Not even enough for me to let you know what i've did for the day even thou i've alr summarised them. Before i even finish talking, it's time to sleep. I've to let you sleep cause i know the training is tough and i don't want you to get caught. For most of the days you're not with me, i live my life aimlessly. I'm so tired of this kind of life and yes i'm very sure i'm not tired of you! I'm just tired of this kind of life. Everyweek is like oh tml sat baby's booking out :D then oh sun baby's booking in :(. It's so tiring. Baby i do love you i really hope i can stop all this stupid thinkings! Cried while talking to you and for this, i'm sure i don't bear to let you go too. Baby don't worry i'll try my best for our future. I'm sorry baby :( you're still as impt to me as before now and forever. And i just need you by my side for as long as you can. No bad temper again when you book out okay? :D Love you Baby

8345345656454 kisses for you! ^3^

Loves

爱永远都是难题　失去分寸太容易　

有时候忘了珍惜　伤害来的太无意　

如果永远你不必再难过　遗憾让我来过

让你哭泣对不起　为了爱承受委屈　

说过的承诺　其实还没忘记

愈是在乎的关系　愈是相处不容易　

伤害了你　我也失去勇气

爱着你　仍是我的执着

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2007-07-16T15:30:00.000+08:00

:D Finally baby msg me. Have been waiting for his msg since i woke up. I miss baby so much can!!! I had nightmare last night. =,= super scary okay it's not those encounter with ghost/vampire or blah blah but it's me being with another guy! -,- This is way more scarier than all those ghostly encounter alright :( i woke up feeling super uncomfortable as if my heart is tearing apart! I swear i won't do this to baby can! And before baby msg me, i feel so insecure i don't why but i'm feeling alright now since baby had alr msg me. :D Baby's the only one i ever want and need in my life now and forever.

Well if i'm not wrong the stupid dream is that me and that unknown guy wore a pair of nike jersey like those couple tees and we're going for a jog i think. And before we went out, He hugged me and we took photo $%^$%^$^%& stupid dream! -,- I can't rmb the others dream but it's also bad dream luh so forget it. Waiting for sam to come to my house now and the rain is still not stopping! I wonder when will it stop. So bored!

Okay so like baby last book out is on friday and i went to yio chu kang to fetch him and we went SSDC again as baby need to help me to book for my theory revision. It's on thursday and after that will be the actual basic theory test. Damn i hope i pass luh! So i'll be able to have practical lessons! Yea totally can't wait to drive a car!! When baby came to my house, dwarfie pee on baby's boot LOL mayb dwarfie think that he's a tree cause baby don't dare to move. Super funny. And i fall at baby's house on sat -,- cause the damn floor is wet :( i cried and baby still laugh at me!!! WTH i still haven kill him yet. And i almost fall again on sunday. How clumsy can i get!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH i miss my baby boy luh!!! :@

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2007-07-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

:)))))))))))))))) i'm so happy today. Baby's booking out on friday and i passed my theory test. Booked my Basic Theory Test and it's on 19 july. So scary i can't wait to end it all. My eye is swollen :( so ugly luh! -,- why must let me be ugly when baby's booking out!!! Went to squeeze my pimples just now and now the scars is so red -,- wth! I hope everything will be fine tml if not i'll be so >:( Alright i'm feeling tired alr. Gonna sleep now if not i won't be able to wake up tml. Night :) i love babyyyy

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2007-07-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

Theory Trial Test Tml

I'm feeling so stress cause i hate failing any tests except maths :(

Baby and sam give me luck :D

I MUST PASSSSSSSSSSS!! :@

2007-07-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

:( i'm in love with a bag again. This is very very bad. I've tons of bags alr and i still wanna get more & more of them. Pic of that lovely bag below. It's launch by Anya Hindmarch and it's only selling for $25 but because everyone went to queue for it and it's very popular, the price is like super ex now. I mean the price remain but for those who manage to get the bag cheap and wanted to sell them, they sell it at a very very ridiculous price. I just saw one at yahoo selling for 300 USD when it's only $25 :( i want to get it man. But it's so ex =,= ! I think singapore is bringing it in on Aug. If the price is $25, i'll get it :D Waiting for baby now. He's busy eating! I'm hungry too but there's nth to eat at home. We're going to giant later as baby need to get his army stuff again :$ I guess every weekend will be army's day too cause even when he's book out, he still need to do something related to the army :@ So like ytd i went to yew tee to fetch baby and he's so smelly LOL cause he didn't bath! So trained back to yio chu kang and went to SSDC to register for my driving lessons. I'm changing my trial test to next week. Let's pray that i will pass it luh! Super nervous! Took neoprint with baby ytd too :D happy happy. Alright i have to go alr shall blog again when i'm free. Bye.... :D

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2007-07-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

:DDDDDDDDDD Baby's coming out! Totally can't wait for tml luh. I'm super impatient. Found a waitress job and it's $10/hr. Good pay and there's transport provided too. I hope we get selected and i'll be super rich. Waste so much money on mrt fares today -,- stupid! Gonna register for driving lessons soon :) by tml or sun i suppose. Dad is slow luh! Whatever cos i'm too happy about tml so it can be delay till sun. Teehee i bought a smiley face donut for baby because sam said that the thick eyebrows look like baby and i think it look kinda cute. The smiley face is made of dark & white chocolate and i can't put it in my bag because it'll definitely break into pieces so i hold onto it everywhere i go. And now the face is alil "dirty" alr cos the dark chocolate melt and it turn the white chocolate part into brown =.= sad! I hope baby will like it. Went to clean baby's bike just now and there's bird shit on it! Yucks can. But now it's all gone and the bike is super clean now :D Alright i have to go to bed alr. If not tml i won't be able to wake up on time to fetch my honeyyyyyy!!! :D Love babyyyyyyyyyyy

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2007-07-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so sick now... >:( totally hate it! It's like monthly one can i'll get sick at least once every month. -,- wth! I'm sick of all these craps luh! I miss baby so much. When he's with me, i remember i only get sick once through out all those months we're tgt!!! :( And now that he's in army, all those craps is back to me. And again i get sick at least once a month! :( I want him to bring me to the doc! Baby i can't wait for sat :( Went town with sam for the training and we're going to work tml. Bored! I hope it'll be easy LOL if not we'll be wasting our time. Mum bought me a tweety bird bra and it's super cute :D Alright i'm off to watch the 9pm show. Bye :D

Babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ♥

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2007-07-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

Haiyo baby's back to the camp luh. And i miss him soooo sooooo much now! :( i don't want him to leave me even for a sec i want him to stay here right with me everyday 24/7! Teehee i'm a sticky gf. How i wish this 2 torturing years end fast!!! >:( totally hate it and it's hard to get use to it!!! So like sat i went to yew tee to meet baby and i feel so distant from him. But after awhile i'm alright. LOL okay luh i'm lame but it's normal alright! Cabbed back to my house and grandma is like so super happy when she saw him! -,- i'm jealous hor stupid baby! :x i'm just kidding! Went back to baby's house by bike and then we talk about so many things. If only he can be here with me 24/7 and hear me nagging then it'll be so good although i think baby don't really like me to nag at him. LOL whatever i just want him to be with me physically and metally everyday luh! Bored! Went to tampines mall to watch transformer with his friends and the show is kinda bored. But luckily i did not fall asleep. Went to jalan kayu then to yishun dam. Arghhhhhh i have totally no mood to blog man. The thought of not being able to see baby for 5 days suck!!! :( 5 days is longgggggggg. So today i'm kinda moody too. Went to hougang mall with baby to get his army stuffs then went to dad shop to trim his hair and i do it can! :) baby say i should learn how to cut hair so that i can help him cut in the future. LOL back to his house after that. Valerie is so cute can! And i am like randomly ask baby what should valerie address me as if we get married? And he say is either shen shen or jiu mu! And i am like super high luh cos i am dreaming of that day when valerie call me that. LOL Slacked at baby's house then help him get change to his army suit. He look so hot in that at least to me. HAHA! Parked his bike at my house then we went to take bus. Took 72 to yio chu kang with baby then he went off. :( Awwwwwwwww 5 more days luh! Baby i miss you so much now can!!! :(
Henry koh suck like a vacuum cleaner! LOL his lovely song. :) love you recruit baby koh!

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2007-06-29T04:00:00.000+08:00

Chatting with sam online now. And guess what we're looking at? LOL we're browsing through yahoo auction and we're looking at sex toys and condoms now. -,- oh my god but it's interesting okay! I nvr know there's so many interesting and funny sex toys out there. Teehee this is so shy. I saw one edible panty and i'm thinking of getting one for baby. Uh uh just to give him a surprise please don't think too much. LOL i think it's kinda cute and imagine i demand him to wear it and he'll be like O.O dead! Okay i know i'm a evil gf but hey i think surprises is good for a r/s alright if not life will be so boring! Had supper at mac with sam just now. Yummy i ate nuggets and drank my favourite miloooo. So happy! Went for a stroll after that and we walked to our ex sec school :( i miss sec school days. Saw a snacks machine there selling the ring shape candy and we decided to buy it. Super cuteeee! Bought one for baby too :) Walked home after that. I guess i'm being paranoid bout my teeth again. It feel like it's going to drop out soon! :( this is so stupid _/_ i want healthy teeth pleaseeeeee -,- everytime give me problem. I think i'm going to sleep soon. Have to wake up early tml cause i'm going to hg mall to buy bike parking ticket. And and and i have to wash bike tml! :) Baby's booking out very soonnnnnn and i'm very happy :) night!